Weird weekened. I call it the weekend of missed oppurtunities. (On a side note, I'm listening to Lonely Security Guard because it always gets me in a moody mood)
Chris randomly texts me on Saturday to see if I had a few hours to kill. I'm definitely NOT excited. I'm not sure what happened, but ever since meeting him and seeing how he has absolutely no respect for his gf/fiance has made me repulsed. Also, I'm not very attracted to him to begin with. It might also have to do with all the years of pented up fantasies about this guy I've never met. Anyway, I digress. At first, it's semi-awkward. So we slathered on the social lubrication (beer). After 3 pints, we were fully loose. And holding hands whilst walking me to the train station. He stopped me multiple times in a romantic attempt to give me the kiss I've waited my whole life. I've had better. After 7 whole years of wondering what his kiss would feel like on my lips, I was semi-disappointed.
This whole thing happened after he discussed his recent engagement to Joyce and his complacent and almost indifferent attitude towards it all. I asked whether he was in love, he said there were aspects of love to be broken down. And when they are, there are benefits. I'm not entirely sure if any of that made sense or whether he's just using his normal rhetoric. Either way, I hardly cared. I knew he was making a mistake. He knows he's making a mistake. I mean if I ask you why you proposed your answer should NOT be: "well, i had extra money after student loans...".
So another one bites the dust. Chris joins the masses who feel that marriage is a necessary and obligatory contract. Devoid of passion and emotion. I don't know how to exist in this world if this is all there is....
Kristin slightly annoyed me this weekend. At certain times her spoiledness comes through and really bothers me. She will uninhibitedly take bites and or sips of your food/drink, but when I and Janie take bites out of the burrito (I gave her because she was hungry!) she retorts "Umm..I thought we were feeding ME!". Ugh....I know she is sweet and unselfish sometimes, but other times, not so much. I don't really blame her though, she told me she was spoiled out in CA. This is the first time being on her own. It must be hard. I just need to get away from people sometimes. The more I spend time with the same people the more easily I become irritated with certain aspects of them.
On a positive note, Amber told me today that I have inspired her to start her own business (a country inn and restaurant). This really touches me, because I never ever thought that by quitting a stable and practical job for a chance at accessories design would ever inspire anyone. Yet, so far, I've heard for a handful of people that my risky move has really inspired them to take their dreams into their own hands--or at the very least, start thinking about their dreams and what makes them happy. This means a lot to me. I feel like I've accomplished something just by inspiring others.
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