I eventually forgave Malcolm for breaking my trust. Kim asked me whether I felt that he was worth the risk....the risk of getting hurt if I trusted him again. Did I like him enough? Ultimately, the answer was yes. Honestly, I don't think I've ever met anyone like Malcolm. I've never liked anyone the way I did him. And I feel like sometimes only I can understand why his dorkiness is so appealing. Kristin and Janie do not get why I find some of the things he says is so funny or endearing. I wonder how his wife understood him. Did she like his dorky jokes and emails? Was she witty too? What about his ex-girlfriends? Either way, I was willing to take the chance to see where this will lead, despite the fact that he broke the trust I had for him and he had to earn it back. It might bite me in the ass in the future....but that was a chance I was willing to take right now. I just wished he didn't fuck it up so bad so early.
I think it's been 3 weeks since the incident. I've mostly let it slip into the recesses of my mind. Alongside with Chris. What ever happened to him? Who knows? He's married. That's all I need to know.
I've recently become annoyed with Malcolm for something else. A while back I told him I really wanted to see London through his eyes. I've been there a couple of times before, but I'd like to see his city, the way he sees mine through my eyes. I casually mentioned when he decided he would go to the UK for the rest of his vacation days, and he said after Christmas. Then I mentioned that we won't be spending New Year's together then I guess, and he just had a sympathetic face, "yea". This got me very annoyed and I tried really hard to hide it so as to not ruin our evening together. After a few days passed, I realized I was very annoyed. I tried to keep a distance, while still maintaining communication. However, this weekend, I became more aloof and he became more attentive and boyfriend-y. I'm not sure if he senses my annoyance, but guys are too dense anyway.
I'm not sure how I will bring up what's bothering me, but I guess I have to in order to be open and communicative. Otherwise, I'll just go out with him all irritated and bothered.